Inconsistencies...

I really need to get on this blog more often, but i don't ever have any time any more!! I'm constantly consumed and bombarded by homework and house work and studying etc. ugh. its ridiculous. but yeah, i've been like REALLY stressed lately because my parent's keep pressuring me about college and grades and i'm getting a "D" in my college history class right about now and no matter how hard i try i can never seem to bring it up and if i don't make good on the test i took friday i'm grounded from my Justin-bear. :( i'm so distressed... no matter how long i sleep at night i'm always tired. i'm getting really sick of everything. i'm beginning to sound like a broken record player with how many times i've said that i just want all of this to pass... i just want everyone to chill out and for everything to be okay. Justin is freaking out about his parental situation, and he's worried that he's gonna screw up his future and i've been trying to tell him not to worry but he seems determined to be depressed no matter how many times i tell him that God's got it ALL under control...but maybe that's the reason i'm failing... is because i'm trying to do it in my own strength instead of God's... i really need to get into the Word like my friend Shane said but i feel like if i take time out of my day to do that then everything else will just fall apart and i'll lose everything: my grades, my love, my friends... i just wish there were more than 24 hours in a day... so i could do more of what i love, so i could see more of my love, so i would have more time to do homework and study and figure out what the world is all about...sigh... i just don't know any more... well, no... i can't really say that cuz i really never HAVE known... its just... i guess its time to give it back to God again... I feel like i'm always doing that... its just a continuous cycle of taking back and giving to God, taking back, giving to God... i don't wanna keep taking it back. i just wanna put it in His hands and forget about it and not have to worry about it... am i really so delusional for wanting things to be that way?